you know my blog name is fello, and almost all of my passkey, containing fello in every word, but just keep guessing, what kind of another complementary word that would fullfill my passkey.. :)
maybe you have a question, what the hell until you think fello is quite important for you? why you so obsessed with that word? and maybe somebody will ask, are you insane? what the hell fello is mean???
before i answer, and also, in this posy i would like to release my stress about that word, i want to apologize, to all my reader in "anime and its moral value" series, because i didn't finish my article about full metal alchemist yet, but i promise you, someday, i will continue that series, with god permission.
ok, continue to the main problem, what the hell fello is?
everything or maybe this accident start when i wan the third grader in junior high school, for your information, i schooled in boarding school, in islamic style and content, so i had many different with other persons, in my junior high school period. i never met, never felt love, and never understand many things about girls, so i am quite careless about them, and sometimes, being a freak boy, no matter how many girl look at me. but everything change when i meet with her, in facebook. indonesia is country that always played "mainstream rule", which means, if you being different person, you will lost many valuable things, or maybe in my opinion, that valuable thing is nothing except shit (because they do not give something that can empower you buddy!) so, when other person played facebook, i followed them, make an account, and try what kind taste of cyber social. then, after a quite short time, one day, i met with her, when i activated my chat room. her name is nafisa haqul azizy, somebody who would fill my life,my time and my heart in very long time, and would crush my dream, with both of our mistakes.
since i had facebook, i had a very unkind behavior, influenced by my friend, i like to troll girls, with ask them to be my girlfriend. and as always, my troll method never success because of my mistake, like being freaky boy, or small mistake like typo.. but when i met with her, my troll success, and she want to be my girlfriend, oh my god, what a poisoned sugar! other side, i like my troll success, but in other side, i do not want to have any girlfriend and i do not like to make other girl cries because of my act! then i ask my friend, what should i do? and he said, just keep it going and flow.
than everything gone i do not know, that's better or worse, but in that time, i thought that everything gone better (now i understand that will be my biggest mistake after all). we contacting each other using facebook inbox, when i send her an inbox message, its looks like that i tell her a very long story, of course like she did. and then, after three months, i fall in love. because i like her smile and i like her chicks, because both is look smooth and soft.
and i think, she love me too, because, she want to look me, want to see my face, and that happen, in the second week in our three months.
you know, in first paragraph, i told you, that i do not care about myself, in front of girls, but when she want to see me, i do my best for my self. i never use wax, but in that time i waxing my hair for her, than when i looked in to the mirror, it feels like a wild alien appeared. then i see her, she look at me too. and as always, my imagination tell me the truth, she is beautiful, with her purple-white long dress, and simple white hijab.and, i like her eyes, because that's always look deep in your heart, and i think, i completely fall in love, in first meeting, and i hope, this feel can bring the brighter future, in my life.. but god always right and god never lies..
continued
in "about fello, is something 2"
author is muhammad abdullah azzam, student in sebelas maret university, in management division in faculty of business and economics. and hope my collage life is better than my past, and i can contribute, to world better future, with god permission.
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